A Zoo
Of Our Own Making: We Will
Kill for Empire and a Parking Space
by Phil
Rockstroh
In an
age, when nature is besieged and the political landscape blighted, and one
stands, stoop shouldered and wincing into the howling wasteland of epic-scale
idiocy extant in the era, a solitary person can feel lost ... marooned inside
an increasingly isolated sense of self. Whether urban, suburban, or rural
dwelling, the sense of alienation, for an individual, is profound ... as
discernible to the eye as the constellations of foreclosure signs stippling
overgrown front lawns across the land ... as hidden as the abandoned dreams
within.
The
fraying ligature of the landscape of the United States reveals an inner
geography of alienation and anomie. Living on the island of Manhattan, I daily
negotiate an urban layout of practical, but identity-decimating grids -- a
cityscape of harsh, inhuman right angles ... a geography that renders street
encounters abrupt, curt and intrusive.
After a
time, one begins, by reflex, to buffer oneself against such intrusions,
withdrawing inward ... becoming a self-enclosed, walking fortress, shielding
oneself from the degradations of these impersonal affronts (that feel
altogether personal) -- with I- Pods, Blackberries, and other vestments
attendant to the muttered prayers of the self-absorbed.
A Zoo
of our own Making: We will kill for empire and a parking space: A visual poem,
video and words, on empire, alienation, and parking problems. Created and
written by Phil Rockstroh. Directed and edited by Angela Tyler-Rockstroh.
While
above the street -- corporate towers -- that are steel and concrete kingdoms of
blind, willful ascension -- blot the skyline ... these structures flee upward,
as if to escape the implications of life lived at street level and sharing in
the consequences of decisions made within their sterile, insular sanctums of
power and cupidity.
This is
architecture as blind hubris: creations made by the hands of mortal men ... yet
failing to have any connection to the ground, these buildings crowd out the
real estate of the sacred. Moreover, their manic skyward thrust leaves them,
and those imprisoned within, bereft of roots that reach down into the renewing
loam of the earth, to where mortal vanity is delivered to dust and desperate
hopes rot and transubstantiate into the compost that nourishes new life.
And
blooms of renewal, I suspect, will not be found online as well. The electronic
sheen of social media sites is no substitute for communal fabric. There is no
animal musk nor angelic apprehensions to en-soul the flesh and tease wisdom out
of obdurate will ... No matter how many restless shades want to friend you on
FaceBook nor ghostly texts descend upon you in an unholy Pentecost of Tweets,
online exchanges will continue to leave you restless, hollow, and yearning for
the colors and cacophony of an authentic agora.
The
adolescent purgatory of FaceBook -- with its castings into the Eternal Now of
instant praise, acceptance, and rejection -- reflects, magnifies, and acerbates
the perpetual adolescence of the contemporary culture of the United States,
intensifying its shallow longings and displaced panics, its narcissistic rage
and obsession with the superficial. It devours libido, by providing a pixilated
facsimile of the primal dance of human endeavor, leaving one's heart churning
in thwarted yearning, locked an evanescent embrace with electronic phantoms, as
one, paradoxically, attempts to live out unfulfilled desires by means of hollow
communion with the soul-negating source of his alienation.
One can
never get enough of what one doesn't need. Ergo, the compulsions and panic of
millions of hungry ghosts will hold an ongoing, hollow mass online, in a futile
campaign to regain form, gain direction, and walk in meaning and beauty among
the things of the world, but instead will remain imprisoned within the very
system that condemned them to this fate.
And
this is the place, we, as a culture, will remain, for a time. This electronic
inferno will be our vale and mountaintop, our sanctuary and leviathan. We will
stare baffled into its vastness, stupefied and lost within its proliferate
array of depersonalizing distractions and seductions. The more we try to lose
ourselves in it, by surrendering to its shimmering surface attractions, the
more tightly we will become bound in the bondage of self.
Naturally,
living in the grinding maw of such monsters of alienation will engulf one with
ennui and angst. Moreover, the judgment of anyone claiming not to be afflicted
should be regarded as suspect.
Possessed
by this mode of being: we languish in a zoo of our own making where we gaze,
without comprehension, at the confines of our enclosure, chew our paws, pace
the cage, and are restless for mealtime. Like an animal in a cage, we are no
longer what we were meant to be ... we have forgotten what it is to be alive.
With the exception of superficial form, we begin to lose our affinity to what
makes us recognizable as a human being and as an animal -- for we have become
simply a sad thing that waits for lunch. And I defy any caged clock-watcher in
a cubicle to defy that point.
Restless
and agitated in our confinement, we sink further into anomie ... into the
benumbing embrace of comfort zones (over- eating, anti-depressants, consumerism
as emotional distraction, addiction to electronic media) where we chose safety
over the truth of our being. In these cages of inauthenticity, our heart's
longings and human needs are held in stasis by the perfunctory persona we
cultivated for approval and acceptance; there, consigned to a barren region of
mind where one is rewarded for docility and duplicity, one languishes, bereft
of eros and pothos ... unconsciously self-convicted and sentenced for the crime
of being a serial betrayer of one's essential self.
So much
of the criteria of the modern condition has atomized us, stripped us,
collectively, of ritual, purpose and meaning, and placed us in the midst of
what T.S. Eliot expressed in prosody as a "heap of broken images."
What
are the roots that clutch, what branches grow Out of this stony rubbish? Son of
man, You cannot say, or guess, for you know only A heap of broken images, where
the sun beats, And the dead tree gives no shelter, the cricket no relief,
And the
dry stone no sound of water. Only There is shadow under this red rock, (Come in
under the shadow of this red rock), And I will show you something different
from either Your shadow at morning striding behind you
Or your
shadow at evening rising to meet you; I will show you fear in a handful of
dust.
--From:
The Waste Land
There
is danger, of course, in such places -- but there is also the possibility of
renewal.
Personal
and historical traumas leave a legacy of bewilderment. And being bewildered
i.e., being in a psychic wilderness, lost, having wandered or been cast past
the known horizon of experience ... is to be in position to engage the novel,
be in the thrall of unfolding mystery, and wander in a soul- suffused landscape
of the sublime.
A state
of alienation is right where we should be: To be able to adapt to a culture
dedicated to little more than finding efficient means of exploiting the hours
of the greater public's lives for the benefit of a greedy few ... would be a
tragedy. Living within this culture should bring on despair ... It is a
leviathan that has devoured your existence. Do you think you can renovate the
belly of the beast ... set up a time-share with Jonah and Pinocchio there ...
and live in comfort?
Should
not one stagger and stammer in mortification when shown a handful of dust?
Moreover,
the solution we are offered -- making ourselves a dwelling within a prison of
consumer kitsch -- should and does only bring on more anomie. Eliot wrote the
following regarding a psyche attempting to adapt to a dying culture
[...]
Birth or Death? There was a Birth, certainly,
We had
evidence and no doubt. I have seen birth and death, But had thought they were
different; this Birth was Hard and bitter agony for us, like Death, our death.
We returned to our places, these Kingdoms,
But no
longer at ease here, in the old dispensation, With an alien people clutching
their gods. I should be glad of another death.
--From:
The Journey of the Magi,
One of
the notions, as Rilke might put it, that is "brooding like a seed" in
my psyche has been the distinction James Hillman makes between civilization and
culture. Hillman avers that, and I agree, civilization is a dead thing -- an
edifice of crumbling marble enshrined in an eros-devoid museum of the mind
where we do little more than give empty, obligatory homage to a fossilized
tableaux ... our forced reverence is but a perfunctory prayer muttered before
the iconography of a dead religion; in contrast, culture is a living, breathing
phenomenon of the collective mind, heart, and soul of the people within it. Its
logos inhabits the very air of existence, permeating it like the sound of
birdsong, and cricket and cicada stridulation throughout a high summer night.
Moreover,
he avers that culture is akin to a madhouse; in fact, the solution lies in the
back ward of the asylum, the area where are housed the hopeless cases. In other
words, like Dante ... proceed to the place you most fear looking upon, embrace
it, and hear its awful keening and heart-opening agonies. There is the location
of rebirth, the last circle of hell ... retreating to a comfort zone will
simply leave the situation is stasis.
So the
question arises: How does one enter the soul-making shabbiness of the human
condition, even though, as always, we are powerless against the trajectory of
history and lost within the mad proliferation of culture -- and, as Bob Dylan
limned in lyric regarding the alienation this situation evokes, "[one has]
no direction home?"
Try
this: embrace the bracing pain of your alienation: make a home in being lost.
Gaze with wonder of upon the sacred scenery of your bewilderment ... Wandering
in the wilderness is a holy state.
Wendell
Berry believes such ventures to be one of the true vocations of the soul:
The
Real Work
It may
be that when we no longer know what to do we have come to our real work, and
that when we no longer know which way to go we have come to our real journey.
The
mind that is not baffled is not employed. The impeded stream is the one that
sings.
--Wendell
Berry
In
other words, in times such as ours, when we embrace our alienation then we will
be welcomed home ... to share a common shelter with the multitudes who are also
lost.
Phil
Rockstroh is a poet, lyricist and philosopher bard living in New York City. He
may be contacted at: phil@philrockstroh.com.
Visit Phil's website http:// philrockstroh.com/ And
at FaceBook: http:// www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000711907499
Angela
Tyler-Rockstroh is a Broadcast Designer/Animator who has worked with major
Networks such as Cartoon Network, Disney Channel, HBO Family, PBS, as well as,
with Michael Moore on his documentaries, "Fahrenheit 9/11†and “Sicko."